Who is Ellen-Carter? I'm sure some of her
friends will be shocked to see this blog because She's a very private person and would rather really not talk about something else except for herself. Some people are asking so, instead of letting others say their piece when they don't really know her, how about letting you get in with her life in a personal level. Not that it's interesting but let's just hear from her. So, without further adeu, let me introduced,
Ellen Carter.
Who is Ellen? And what is she like? She's just an
ordinary person who has an ordinary life experiences. She's a very quiet person who loves to keep it to herself growing up. She hardly even speaks unless spoken to. She
doesn't seek attention, in fact she keeps a very low profile. She rather be in the corner hiding herself than in the center of a spotlight. She's a type who, gets
very shy around people. And often times because she's quiet and reserved she is mistaken for being stuck up when deep inside she's just very introvert, she's definitely not a snob but very shy and just minding her own business.Ellen Carter.
If you try to talk to her, she answers,-- then clams up. She just grew up not being sociable at all. She gets uncomfortable around people most esp. when she sense there's too many fakeness around. (smiles)
And one thing I have to say about Ellen is that she's very down to earth person, she's so in tuned where she came from and if you come to know her, she will think of you highly and much better of as a person than herself. So, if you think about it, if you are a person who have a sense of competition around her, she'll run away from you knowing she does not have to get into the stress of playing the games children play around other children. High school years are lo-n-ggg gone. She respetcs people who can be themselves and not change for others its whether you take her for what she is, how she is or don't waste her time. And speaking about competition, there's no competition with her because in her eyes you are already the winner for her because she couldn't really care less about your status in life not unless it is such a big deal for you. From where she grew up, competition is everywhere. She often wonders, why is it such a big deal for others even grown people acts like children with the younger generation where people are so fixated how they look like for others, their status in life where they really work so hard to even to step on others just so they can get ahead. When all it really looks like they are so desperate. She's seen people say, even parents would say, oh- so and so is doing better so you should do better than her. Even parents themselves gives that sense of competition for their children and so they grow up always feeling like they have to compete with other kids or else they will feel like a failure. Sad but true.
If only they can see themselves when they do it. It's kind of pathetic but what are going to do, their parents are the ones teaching them and its what they see at home.That is why when Ellen can sense the familiar spirit of competition, she does not mind making them like a winner if that's what really makes them feel better although it is just really feeding their egos.
but at the same time, she feels too old for those shallow childish little things people play. And when she sense that you have'nt outgrown that spirit of competition then I think she loves her peace of mind more than keeping you as her friend and so before you know it, she's gone.
Ellen is a type of person, her aunt would say to her, like a stigma in her head, she recalls her saying, "You need to get out in the world, exposed yourself and find out what's out there. " Talking about episodic memory. Yeah, it's more like in those lines of words being said to her growing up. Why, because she'd rather be at home from school even out of school than going out partying like those kids her age. It just seemed as though it became a growing concern for her aunt seeing her around the house all the time when most of the kids her age are out and about to explore the world.
If only they can see themselves when they do it. It's kind of pathetic but what are going to do, their parents are the ones teaching them and its what they see at home.That is why when Ellen can sense the familiar spirit of competition, she does not mind making them like a winner if that's what really makes them feel better although it is just really feeding their egos.
but at the same time, she feels too old for those shallow childish little things people play. And when she sense that you have'nt outgrown that spirit of competition then I think she loves her peace of mind more than keeping you as her friend and so before you know it, she's gone.
Ellen is a type of person, her aunt would say to her, like a stigma in her head, she recalls her saying, "You need to get out in the world, exposed yourself and find out what's out there. " Talking about episodic memory. Yeah, it's more like in those lines of words being said to her growing up. Why, because she'd rather be at home from school even out of school than going out partying like those kids her age. It just seemed as though it became a growing concern for her aunt seeing her around the house all the time when most of the kids her age are out and about to explore the world.
I have to say, she was not really
good at socializing. Her life seemed boring. YUP! LOL!! Going to school and back home everyday--sounds boring, I know. Which by the way, made people think she's aloof, and there are also others who mistakenly think of her as being snob. Yes, she's introvert
and just plain shy. Some people misunderstood her for being shy to being stuck up.Um, yeah, I already mentioned that earlier.
Boy, talking about those negative memories of her with people being so mean although she can laugh about it now. But back then, it's never easy to have those people thinking negatively about her when they don't really know her personally. Even when she was younger then she just couldn't seem to understand why the growing concern of her auntie trying to get her to exposed in social life only brought her stressed making her feel like she's far too different than others when all she wanted is to be at home and stay away from trouble. Although she can say now, in fairness of her aunt's assessment, bless her heart! She knows she meant well.
Boy, talking about those negative memories of her with people being so mean although she can laugh about it now. But back then, it's never easy to have those people thinking negatively about her when they don't really know her personally. Even when she was younger then she just couldn't seem to understand why the growing concern of her auntie trying to get her to exposed in social life only brought her stressed making her feel like she's far too different than others when all she wanted is to be at home and stay away from trouble. Although she can say now, in fairness of her aunt's assessment, bless her heart! She knows she meant well.
Anyway, she grew up with my 2
siblings. Alan is the eldest, Reuben is the youngest. She remembered she had so many good
memories with her brothers, not to mention those moments of fighting. Yeah! Tell
me about it and who among you can relate to that? I'm sure a lot of us can identify on that part
of your life if you have siblings. (Laughs) Oh- those 2 brothers, she loved so dearly!
She can honestly say, there is no sense of any competition among the three of them which is really a blessing!
All three of them have gone through so much together and stick to each other closer than any other siblings in the absence of their parents growing up. The only good part of those life experiences they've had, was the journey and good memories growing up together.
Those exciting moments, those highs and lows of life, through thick or thin they were together. All three of them were much of a team --not competing with each other. Ellen even remembered when she was fighting for her eldest brother at one point, I mean physically she's not even scared as if she becomes a different person having so much braveness in her when she finds out someone is messing with her brother. Oh- sister!I guess when you are young and does not know any better, when it comes to your loved ones, because both of her siblings are very close to her will fight for any of them at any time. Yup, that's her. Quiet but feisty that is! Hey, for good reasons only. (Laughs)
Okay now to continue on, when all three siblings were growing up, And much more like we know they can depend on among each other, somehow they knew they will always have someone to fall back on, no matter what happens in life. Ellen definitely feel so blessed with her two siblings, she could only thank the good Lord for it.
She can honestly say, there is no sense of any competition among the three of them which is really a blessing!
All three of them have gone through so much together and stick to each other closer than any other siblings in the absence of their parents growing up. The only good part of those life experiences they've had, was the journey and good memories growing up together.
Those exciting moments, those highs and lows of life, through thick or thin they were together. All three of them were much of a team --not competing with each other. Ellen even remembered when she was fighting for her eldest brother at one point, I mean physically she's not even scared as if she becomes a different person having so much braveness in her when she finds out someone is messing with her brother. Oh- sister!I guess when you are young and does not know any better, when it comes to your loved ones, because both of her siblings are very close to her will fight for any of them at any time. Yup, that's her. Quiet but feisty that is! Hey, for good reasons only. (Laughs)
Okay now to continue on, when all three siblings were growing up, And much more like we know they can depend on among each other, somehow they knew they will always have someone to fall back on, no matter what happens in life. Ellen definitely feel so blessed with her two siblings, she could only thank the good Lord for it.
So much about her siblings, it time to talk about her
parents, she was very much younger then when they migrated in the US. And she admitted, that it was the hardest time for all of them, even those memories of herself crying every night
because we miss them so dearly like crazy. But at the same time, she fully understood why they
have to do, what they did all to better their lives. The sacrifices her parents did to better their lives.I know it tore hers and her siblings hearts even more so their parents to say the least to leave them behind and miss out on them growing up.
She could only wish they had the same technology they did now back then where you can just e-mail each other, talk live face to face via the internet or call via telephone using tango on iPhone, would have made a difference in the world. I mean seriously! have you ever had to call someone international back then, like many years ago when you can't even get through because there's no signal or simply because the system is down, and by the time that you finally get hold of the person after hours of waiting and holding the line, suddenly it cuts off on you! I mean talking about major head ache and disappointments.
She recalled only once in a while if she gets lucky she can talked long distance with a good reception. That is if you are lucky! Yup, talking about major technology overhaul! But that was then. This is now. Gone are the days. Well, At least they can just talk and laugh about it now. ;P
To look back, at least her parents sacrifices finally paid off when they finally reunited after ten years? The wait and the missing out on each other, the time and years missing out on, the time you can never turned back. The drama of life. Yes, those defining moments of their lives.
Like they say, "Behind every cloud there's a silver lining." Ahh..Memories of herself and life experiences, those episodic memories when she's growing up. As she chalks it all up to experience. The only thing though, is her eldest brother decided to stay in the UK. Although she misses him dearly but he's always in her prayers. So reunion came for her family and life goes on.
She could only wish they had the same technology they did now back then where you can just e-mail each other, talk live face to face via the internet or call via telephone using tango on iPhone, would have made a difference in the world. I mean seriously! have you ever had to call someone international back then, like many years ago when you can't even get through because there's no signal or simply because the system is down, and by the time that you finally get hold of the person after hours of waiting and holding the line, suddenly it cuts off on you! I mean talking about major head ache and disappointments.
She recalled only once in a while if she gets lucky she can talked long distance with a good reception. That is if you are lucky! Yup, talking about major technology overhaul! But that was then. This is now. Gone are the days. Well, At least they can just talk and laugh about it now. ;P
To look back, at least her parents sacrifices finally paid off when they finally reunited after ten years? The wait and the missing out on each other, the time and years missing out on, the time you can never turned back. The drama of life. Yes, those defining moments of their lives.
Like they say, "Behind every cloud there's a silver lining." Ahh..Memories of herself and life experiences, those episodic memories when she's growing up. As she chalks it all up to experience. The only thing though, is her eldest brother decided to stay in the UK. Although she misses him dearly but he's always in her prayers. So reunion came for her family and life goes on.
After living here in the US for so many years she have a lot of exciting things to share. But it's going to take her to write a book for her to do that. But not to worry, I promised its not going to happen. Besides, I don't want to bore you to death anymore, as I know I probably already have.
I guess the moral of her personal
story is to never give up on all your hopes and dreams
in life even when it takes time. Even when it seems as though it's never going to happen. It
just takes patience and yes, more patience, courage, and perseverance. Above
all things, having God in our lives to guide us through. If you think the wait
is too long for you, you are are not alone. Just don't get discouraged, sometimes life is teaching us to be more patient and to have a leap of faith.
Faith into believing that God will always make a way for you. I don't know your
personal story but just remember, "Patience is bitter but its fruit is
sweet". Anyway, thank you all for reading my blog and I hope you're not
asleep,--yet. (Laughs)
